When the world inside you
is shouting
with all its might.
Sometimes
it feels good
to stay inside.
Sometimes
it feels good
to hide.
Sometimes
it feels good
to lose your mind.
It’s not something
you want to repeat
but then
it repeats
and repeats
it doesn’t stop.
The thoughts are never ending,
the phase so incomplete
just repeating.
The truth starts to reckon
And you start thinking
And thinking
And thinking
Going further out to sea.
You then find yourself
in the dark
with the water all around.
You see the moonlight
high in the sky
it’s all that can be found.
The moon whispers,
“I get how it feels too.
I know how to swim
and drown too.
Nothing to balance.
The water all around.
Just me shining down.”
So then
I put an end
to what feels good.
I choose to swim.
I choose to feel pain
No longer hiding
I embrace.
I choose to repeat the phase
from a new place.
Then I find myself
in the trees
no longer in the ocean
drown.
No longer pushing
to feel good,
I feel free
Loved
Found
…
“See the forest for the trees.”
– John Heywood 🍃
Kelsey With Some Jo 